Wedding or marriage is every teenage girl's fantasy. You would agree completely. However strangely I never fantasised on these lines. For me, my dreams revolved around the POWER WOMAN or the SUPERWOMAN. Yes I always wanted to be a female corporate honcho travelling throught the length and breadth of the world!! But as God ordained, I met my would- be husband and felt as if this was the Man I was dying to meet sooo long. And voila!!! I began of dreaming of becoming the perfect Wife, Homemaker and Mother too!!!
Soon I realised - circumstances can completely change anyone!! Today I am only a few months away from becoming a wife, a bride. A medley of thoughts criss-cross my mind every moment. The pain of leaving my parents , the thought about the unknown- such as 'whats, buts and whys' trouble my mind most of the time.
I guess the biggest worry is the fact that a woman has to leave her home, where she spends her childhood, teenage and adolescence too, and her relatives to form her new home with her newly-wed husband. The more I think about it, the more I sigh!! Hence for me, my wedding is more a source of worry and sadness than joy. Amidst all the shopping, planning and dreaming that I am doing since the past few months,of course to brighten up my fiance's mood, the constant thought that racks my brain is - why? Why do I have to leave my parents and go to a different home, where I dont even know half the people and to top that, live with people, who are still complete strangers to me.
Often I feel, if I could catch hold of the person who formulated this rule, I would have become the modern day Durvasha Muni i.e. I would have reduced that person to ashes.
To conclude, a wedding is definitely a lovely chapter in our lives but... the eternal but still remains...
For the bride, it brings with it a substantial amount of pain, sadness and loneliness too!!! It's a weird feeling for any would-be-bride!!! The fear of the unknown, howmuchever you may know your would be life-partner, always haunts!!
Soon I realised - circumstances can completely change anyone!! Today I am only a few months away from becoming a wife, a bride. A medley of thoughts criss-cross my mind every moment. The pain of leaving my parents , the thought about the unknown- such as 'whats, buts and whys' trouble my mind most of the time.
I guess the biggest worry is the fact that a woman has to leave her home, where she spends her childhood, teenage and adolescence too, and her relatives to form her new home with her newly-wed husband. The more I think about it, the more I sigh!! Hence for me, my wedding is more a source of worry and sadness than joy. Amidst all the shopping, planning and dreaming that I am doing since the past few months,of course to brighten up my fiance's mood, the constant thought that racks my brain is - why? Why do I have to leave my parents and go to a different home, where I dont even know half the people and to top that, live with people, who are still complete strangers to me.
Often I feel, if I could catch hold of the person who formulated this rule, I would have become the modern day Durvasha Muni i.e. I would have reduced that person to ashes.
To conclude, a wedding is definitely a lovely chapter in our lives but... the eternal but still remains...
For the bride, it brings with it a substantial amount of pain, sadness and loneliness too!!! It's a weird feeling for any would-be-bride!!! The fear of the unknown, howmuchever you may know your would be life-partner, always haunts!!
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